Assalammualaikum,

Aipp,,today entry just for suka-suka,,i want to tell why i choose science stream

"Science stream susah doh"
"amik sastera je la senang"


That saying always come in my mind,,people ask me to just forget the science stream,You are not a robot to learn all the science subject,,,

When  i got my PMR result (now is pt3),
At that time Cikgu Zalipah bercakap kat depan untuk mengumumkan pelajar cemerlang PMR,aipp,,masih ingat waktu tu dekat DEWAN MINI sekolah seni..aipp,,did you still remember that dewan?macam dewan sekolah rendah je..hahaha..but dewan tu banyak memory,,dulu when i'm form 1,,dulu setiap sabtu ada tayangan pawagam bayar rm1,,aipp,,,waktu tu warden adalah ayahanda ayie,,warden paling best....bagi simpan laptop,,,belanja makan,,leh masuk rumah dia,,,but....

"He Is A gay"

hahahahaha..yes,pernah satu kali tu,,,he trying to touch my body,,,nasib baik i said i have kerja nak buat dan terus pergi dari situ,,kat dewan tu juga,,,macam2 produksi,,assembly setiap hari isnin...ikrar pengawas,,,main piano lagu negaraku dan bangsa johor (ahmad zaid pernah main piano tu untuk lagu tersebut)ahhahaha...

Okay,,back to my story,,,melalut jap
"Saya akan umumkan nama pelajar yang mendapat semua A dalam mata Penilaian Menengah Rendah"
jeng jeng jeng
My heart berdegup sangat kencang like shotgun yang sedang menembak-okay hiperbola- but i'm very nervous like hell...sampai lah
"Pelajar pertama ialah...."
"Ahmad Zaid Bin Ismail"

At that time,,,Allah je tau my feeling,,,,i just look down  staright to the floor from where i'm sitting,and say alhamdullilah,,,

"Usaha aq berbalas"bisik hati kecil....

I'm surprised at that time,,i'm touched when all people applause after my name disebut,,,And ahmad zaid bangun,,,straightly i went to stage and take my result

"Tahniah"
"Terima kasih"

Hajah Norziah said that to me....

That feeling when you feel your hard work paid,,,,my self also didn't know how to describe about that feeling..maybe boleh simpulkan dengan satu perkataan

"Puas"

Orang pertama i'm call is my mother of course,,,
Ingat lagi,,waktu UPSR,,,,after i got my result,,,i just get 3A 2B,,at that time,,,nothing worry me,,,

"eleh,,upsr kut,,tkde mende"
"Oklah 3A 2B"

but,,i feel something wrong i dont know why...rasa uneasy dan tak sedap hati...So,,after i got result upsr,,i quickly see my mum,,dulu takde phone so kne jumpe face to face...and i just give to her that slip,,,

Dulu my mother jadi tukang masak kat kedai makan,,,sampai je kedai tu,,entahlah tak tau lah,,i see my mum's tired face,,,and when she see me,,,she smile and say,,,

"macam mana UPSR?"
I see my mother amati slip tu,,,
"Okay lah tu,alhamdullilah"

I don't why,,,,,

Suddenly i shed tears as i hear my mother say those words....yup,,, i try untuk tahan,,yup i'm trying very hard,,,but i couldn't,,,

Depan orang ramai...i cry,,,,i just look bawah and cry,,titis demi titis airmata jatuh,,,

My mother quickly,,,touched my face,,and say,,,
"budak laki mana boleh nangis"
i calm myself and said,,
"mak,ed minta maaf tak dapat keputusan yang baik"
"dah2,,,dah buat yang terbaik kan?,mak banggalah,"

At that time,,,it is my first sincere tears,,yes sincere tears,,,
and know what,,as i typing this post,,i'm crying when remember that moment....
Then,,lepas je nangis tu,, i know something,,what makes me tak sedap hati,,actually,i'm jealous with my friends yang dapat 5A,,,but ego tahan daripada jealous...Yup i jealous,,lagi2 bile budak2 5A dipanggil untuk tangkap gambar...

Selepas nangis baru myself sedar....Work harder next time....

Aipp,,stop from that upsr story,,lama kut,,,
So berbalik kepada PMR,,after i call my mum,,she was so happy,,
"Tahniah"
my mom voice at that time was the suara my mum yang paling gembira yang pernah myself dengar...
Mata berkaca dahwaktu tu,,nak nangis,,tapi ramai kawan2 kat situ,,,so i try to tahan and this time berhasil,,hahaha,,mungkin sebab dulu UPSR masih kecil...
apelah ahmad zaid nie....

So,,,lepas je call my mum,,,i straight away go to stage untuk tangkap gambar pelajar cemerlang,,lepas je amik gambar as i want to keluar,,,i hear a voice,,,
"zaid,,owh zaid"
"dapat berapa?"
pandang je belakang,,,,,
susuk tubuh kecil dan comel,,berkaca mata bulat,,,,pakai baju putih..ingat lagi waktu tu,,,,

"Madam Zaleha Binti Mohamed"

One of my favourite teacher,,she teach me science,,mostly,,she like my mother,,,i always smile when with her,,okay,,now i'm crying... :(

"alhamdullilah,staright A cikgu"
"saya dah agak dah kamu staright a"
"So lepas nie nak amik ape?sains tulen?"
"Tak Tahu la cikgu,,sains tulen macam susah je"
"Saya tau awak boleh la zaid,awak student kegemaran saya juga"
"Ada2 je cikgu nie"
"Saya serius,,awak amik la sains tulen"
"aipp,,untuk cikgu sume boleh"
"Cikgu,,terima kasih,,tanpa cikgu mustahil nak dapat straight A"
"say guide je,,awak punye usaha plus otak yang memang dah pandai"

We laughing and laughing....hahahaha,,,

And,,yup,,finally,,Ahmad zaid amik sains tulen atas dorongan Madam Zaleha,,,,That how i ended to amik sains tulen,,

"THE DAY SHE PASSED AWAY"
It was a fine morning,,,me at Perak waktu tu,,kat UPSI,,tolong produksi Spm gen 3,,waktu tu,,dah masuk 4 cindai dah,,,,waktu berkumpul untuk taklimat hari ketiga di sana untuk briefing pasal latihan hari tu,,,

"Saya ada berita mengejut,harap awak semua sabar"
"Puan Zaleha Binti Mohamed,penolong kanan sains dan matematik,telah meninggal dunia pada pagi ini"

At that time,,i was fooling around with my friend,,as i hear that name,,,i'm totally silence,,I said
"betulkah ape aku dengar?"
"Madam Zaleha meninggal?"
"seriuslah"

i even tolak my friend
"wei jawablah"
"ye zaid,,madam Zaleha Meninggal"

at that time,,myself terduduk,,pandang ke bawah lagi sekali,,,

"I Cry"
At that time,,i remember our conversation waktu kat dewan mini waktu amik result PMR,,
Its Hurt so much,,,,she is very close to me...she always consult me to be the best,,she accompany me for science competition,,,,she even treat me makan...
I just couldn't believe,,,cepat sangat semua nie berlaku,,,baru hari tu jumpe Madam kat sekolah,,she looks fine.....we even make jokes together,,,
If i could see her begore she passed away,,nak minta maaf banyak2,,,,nak cakap terima kasih banyak2...nak cakap how much me terhutang budi kat Madam...
But,,i know...

"She not here anymore"

sampai sekarang,,nak pergi lawat kubur madam,,waktu spm nak pegi tapi tak tau kat mana kubur nya..One day nak pergi melawat kubur Madam...I really want to meet her once more...
Al-Fatihah,,,semoga rohnya,,dicucri rahmat...

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